It's getting harder to cope baby. I came back from Ireland today. London feels so cold and lonely. When I got off the coach, only for a moment, I got excited at the thought of seeing you again. Then the hurt and pain came flooding back. It's six weeks today that I last spoke to you and six weeks on Sunday that you left. When I got back to Lilly's I cried my heart out. Please Decky I need help. I can't cope with this. Never has anyone made such an impression on me as you have. I'm just so glad of the time we had, but I'm so sad at not having more years together. Forever in my heart. Paul XxX