Today has been the hardest since you left. Everything I see, everything I do reminds me of you. I look up in the sky and hope you're looking back. I look down to the ground and can't stop crying. My Deckie, our Deckie the most beautiful soul I've ever met. I really can't go on without you baby. It's just so difficult to understand these emotions. I watched your video on my phone today and just broke down. You were my life, you were my baby. I want to be with you nothing else matters to me anymore. I love you Declan, I miss you Declan, I'm nothing without you. Always and forever. Paul XxX